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Monday, March 23, 2009

Hey...Where Did That Rug Go?


You know how sometimes you can be sleeping and feel like you're falling off a cliff and then you wake up? And realize it's just a dream?

Ever had that feeling but realized you're really awake?

I'm going to try to keep this as light as possible since this is supposed to be a fun blog. I guess I haven't posted much lately because, well, I just haven't felt really funny. I'm trying...it's just that my sense of humor kind of got ripped out from under me along with the rug.

You know all those awful stories on the news about all those people who have lost their jobs? Well...we've become one of those people. Not both of us. Just one of us. Remember that movie "Mr. Mom"? We're sort of living it right now.

I shouldn't say we haven't laughed much lately because that would be a lie. Actually, we've laughed quite a bit. Some days just to keep from crying. Others because it's all a surreal humorous scene some mornings as I rush out the door to a meeting while pancakes are flying across the kitchen and Daddy's running interference.

The thing is.... some days I think he's doing a much better job at home than I ever felt like I did. He is patient. Very very patient. And fun. He told me the other night that he looks at this as a kind of gift....a rare and unexpected opportunity to spend time with the kids that he would have never had. He is truly amazing me through this whole horrible thing. And I just love him all the more for it.

My biggest struggle here is the not knowing. The wondering. And the uncertainty. The fear of the unknown. And the fear that we're down to one life line. But then again that's one more than so many people have right now.

I have a childhood friend who ends each of her blog entries with a "Thanking God for... " thought. So I'm going to borrow that from her.

Thanking God today for life lines, unexpected gifts, and each other.

5 comments:

Busy Mom said...

What a gift you have been given and that your sweet husband sees it that way is an even bigger gift. Praying for you all and God's plan for you guys!!

Laurie said...

Glad you're back ... I missed you!
Another favorite little saying you might enjoy: "Laughter is a gift from the gods." Maybe that rings really, really true for you right now ...

Booster MPS said...

I often say that we make it through this life together.

I am in your corner J.

Kelly said...

Sending you a big hug! I'm happy to see that you have posted, even if it isn't a light-hearted tale... regardless it is your adventure of being working mother to three children. Glad to know Andy is so well equipped to be home with them for now.

Colored With Memories said...

saw this on FB a while back...thinking of you guys...any prospects yet?